Well I've done it. I've reached the point of having nothing else to put in the skip. It is being collected tomorrow morning.
It has been a learning experience for sure. I think subconsciously, my "goal" for the week had been to "fill the skip", because that's what you do right? You order a skip and you fill it before it's collected? Seems simple enough.
Well, this morning I found myself beating myself up at the fact that the skip wasn't filled right up to the max load line. I guess a part of me felt like some kind of failure, for not having done enough. It felt very uncomfortable and I didn't like it at all.
But as I sat with that feeling, getting curious about why I felt the way I did, I had a realisation. I had been looking at the situation from the wrong perspective.
Rather than berating myself for not finding more stuff to get rid of, what I should have been doing, was CONGRATULATING myself for reaching the point of having cleared so much stuff over the course of having the 3 skips, that I no longer had anything left to clear out! THAT was my true goal...To no longer require a skip... and I did it!
Being able to re-frame the situation definitely took some of the pressure off. Also, I knew that I truly had done all I could and wasn't just making excuses. It was just another part of the old "not doing enough" story, falling away and it was beautiful.
And so it begins...
Making steady progress...
One black bag full of shredded paperwork and I still have a LOT to get through.
Whilst it is therapeutic to let go of years and years of paperwork that I had kept hold of for one reason or another, my little shredder is really struggling to keep up and is slowing the whole process down.
I really don't like paperwork!
At the end of 2020 and then again in April of this year, I went on a bit of a mad decluttering spree and managed to fill two large skips with things that were no longer serving me and my family.
Well, it would seem it is that time of year again and I feel the desire to further declutter our home to allow abundance to flow more freely throughout it.
I am working my magic around the house, in small doses, as and when I can, to make it a more sacred and serene place, but to be able to do this more successfully, I want to create more space and get rid of more clutter.
I recently realised that I'd been holding on to "things" for all of the wrong reasons and if anything, my keeping hold of them has actually been working AGAINST me, not for me.
So this week I will be contacting the local skip hire company and arranging for them to deliver another skip, in to which I can ceremoniously release all that has been holding me back.
You may think I'm a little mad, but the best of us are. ;)