mission complete

​Well I've done it. I've reached the point of having nothing else to put in the skip. It is being collected tomorrow morning.

It has been a learning experience for sure. I think subconsciously, my "goal" for the week had been to "fill the skip", because that's what you do right? You order a skip and you fill it before it's collected? Seems simple enough.

Well, this morning I found myself beating myself up at the fact that the skip wasn't filled right up to the max load line. I guess a part of me felt like some kind of failure, for not having done enough. It felt very uncomfortable and I didn't like it at all.

But as I sat with that feeling, getting curious about why I felt the way I did, I had a realisation. I had been looking at the situation from the wrong perspective.

Rather than berating myself for not finding more stuff to get rid of, what I should have been doing, was CONGRATULATING myself for reaching the point of having cleared so much stuff over the course of having the 3 skips, that I no longer had anything left to clear out! THAT was my true goal...To no longer require a skip... and I did it!
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Being able to re-frame the situation definitely took some of the pressure off. Also, I knew that I truly had done all I could and wasn't just making excuses. It was just another part of the old "not doing enough" story, falling away and it was beautiful.